#so I have the ultimate brain fog basically

[positivelyghastly]

Mist can be a little cruel. As a treat

[midnight-mourning]

*Taps mic* Heard y'all like Moon around here, you're in luck, this one's for you

massive, MASSIVE thank you to @lunarmoves for beta-reading this chapter!!

She put a lot of time and effort into making my BS readable for y'all and it's greatly appreciated <3 <3 <3

Shay also makes really good dca stuff (also sebastian solace but I know very little about the fish tbh) and you should check her out!

Also, happy 200k+!!! We're only 297k from truly becoming the 500k enemies to lovers slowburn of our dreams lmaoooo

But for real I apologize for such a delay with this one. If you'd like to hear my excuses/reasoning they're below the cut, or you can just go read the chapter whatever suits ya ^-^

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CW: medical stuff & additionally a bit of unreality mentions

Okay going to try and keep this simple bc I've said parts of it before

So as most of you know, I've been sick for 3 months now

I've now been on two rounds of steroids, and currently on my third round of antibiotics, which are basically keep me fucntional, not improving

besides general discomfort and pain, my memory has been pretty shot at times, I will go through the day and barely remember what I did/what I'm doing/what I need to do

as someone who had brain fog caused by covid a few years ago, this was genuinely a scary experience because ultimately, this has been worse

i've felt out of control of my body, having times where I'm mid thought and then instantly lose it

this is not my normal, I usually pride myself on my memory, so losing it has been incredibly devastating and scary

this was not helped by the fact that the quick care I went to (THREE TIMES for this) basically kind of sort of tried to gaslight me into believing nothing could be done and that it's not an infection

so not only has this entire thing has gotten dragged out so much more, which makes me sad tbh, but I've also felt like I've been going crazy bc it felt like no one was believing me when i said I was sick and not getting any better (including friends, family, coworkers etc, though unintentional on their parts to be fair)

I feel like I've lost three months of my life and coming to terms with that has been, yeah

on top of all that, I'm still in school AND doing grad stuff, and while the school side of things has been okay (thank god), grad's had it's moments, won't get into it but have had multiple issues with my advisor that have been at times just really tough to deal with

Confused spirit got pushed to the back burner, because i quite literally at times could not think, and when it comes to this fic, where there's multiple ongoing plot threads, characterizations, lore, and so on to keep track of, it was just, impossible to me to even consider writing for it

having shorter stuff like promptober, the oneshots and such was great to keep me writing, and also still interact with everyone in the community, plus i had a lot of fun with them so that helped too

this is all to say that I do sincerly apologize for the delay, and at the very least I should've clearly communicated about there being a hiatus, when this all started I thought i'd be down for two weeks max, then as that time kept increasing I just kept putting it off and putting it off because i thought i was going to get better, and then I didn't

I do this for fun and for nothing else, fic writing isn't content (it's engaging with fandom) and i have to remind myself of that sometimes but given that I've been around in some capacity on and off I feel I should've said something in some regard

Having said all that, I'm doing okay now! Still sick, but as long as I'm on meds I'm functional, stuff is getting managable with grad, and hopefully have some fun things coming up irl! Point is, the last three months haven't been the best, but they've been alright, due in part to all the support you all have given me, so thank you for that, can't say it enough :)

Okay, I think that just about covers it, thank you for taking the time to read all of this if you did <3

[dingodad]

What is the deal with the beta and alpha kids ghosts in Terezi remem8er? When their main bodies die, their souls just go into their dream body/god tier body, so their dead bodies shouldn’t have specific ghosts. I get how dreamselves have ghosts since when the main consciousness takes over the dream body, the original soul dies, but there should be no soul left inside of the main body of the kids if they ascended. As far as I know, this flash is the only one that shows ghosts of the dead bodies of characters? Every time a character dies, is there just a ghost made of them no matter what? Do souls just not work that way in homestuck?

Remem8er is a moment in the comic i prefer not to think about most of the time because of these exact insane implications but I think the best way to frame those implications in a way that expands our understanding of the rest of Homestuck rather than coming across as a crazy last-minute twist is to think of the ghosts in the dream bubbles not as "souls" as we might traditionally understand them, but as "memories".

like, obviously the point of the entire flash is "Remem8er"ing, so any understanding of the events in the animation should stem from that. but we ourselves also have to remember that these structures we think of as an 'afterlife' are first and foremost "dream" bubbles. and while we tend to think of ghosts and memory projections as two distinctly different things in the dream bubbles, they're not without their overlap; remember that psychics like Aradia and Sollux interacted with and even summoned the shades of the dead all the time before they ever visited the dream bubbles, and there are subtle implications that interacting with a memory of an event can have some real impact on how that event plays out.

the "soul" as it is exists in Homestuck is something that can be "splintered" by a mere thought - the Brain Ghost Dirk has its own ghostly existence, but it's really just Jake's 'interpretation' of Dirk, and Hal and Dave's bro are all just different kinds of interpretation of the same character. and this is basically how the things we see in Remem8er are framed; the animation ends with everything flashing by in a neuron, because it was all a visualisation of Terezi's Mind powers, and Mind is an aspect that deals not with facts of physics (like 'you only get one soul') but with the way our own interpretation of events dictates reality - as quoted in the link above, reality isn't something that happens to you but "SOM3TH1NG [you] 4R3 M4K1NG 3V3RY MOM3NT W1TH 3V3RY THOUGHT".

as I've said before, as Homestuck approaches its conclusion and the shape of the Ultimate Self begins to emerge from the fog, the comic starts to introduce more and more of these different kinds of 'interpretation' - first doomed timeline versions, then post-scratch versions, then post-retcon versions - not because it wants you to keep track of them all as if they were different characters, but because it wants you to get the picture that no matter what permutations you make they are all ultimately the SAME character. I once talked to someone who suggested Remem8er was SUPPOSED to be some kind of shocking twist that forced us to deal with the gravity of death in Homestuck in a way we had previously been ignorant to, but I don't think this could be further from the truth: Remem8er puts importance on these deaths precisely because they are NOT moments of grave severity, but stepping stones in the journey the characters took to become who they are now. after all, "Remem8ering" is not mourning something you lost, but accepting that something has always been part of you, even when you weren't aware of it.

so to actually answer your question: yes... as hard as that might be to accept initially, i guess it does make a ghost every time you die even if you get reborn afterward? but like Terezi points out, we make new memories and therefore new ghosts any time we make any decision that affects the world around us. don't think of the soul or pieces of the soul as something you lose to the void every time a new ghost of you is born into the void, but rather as one huge picture that gets sharper as each new ghost takes the place of a new pixel in the image!

[vulpine-spectacle]

So, I am having a Day (tm) and I am trying to write at the moment, but otherwise I'm having some brain fog and writing is proving tricky. My leg is also sore due to the tattoo I just got and my mood is somber due to failing my certification test, so...yay me. :) ( I can retake the test, so no worries on my end. )

But since I am in a Mood (tm), I am going to share a couple of random facts about Echoes in our Blood - deleted plot points, random facts, etc.

The scene in Hyperion when Eurydice, Isca, Jael, Valeria, and Delphine were undergoing a Bene Gesserit test originally had a different outcome. While they were nesting under the roots of a tree, they were going to be attacked by direwolves and have a chase sequence. Eurydice was going to get bitten by a direwolf, then escape with Isca. They were both going to jump into a river and Eurydice was going to have a vision of Cienna during that sequence. This was actually a pivotal change, because Isca was originally going to be Eurydice's companion. But I scrapped the idea due to how long it would take to write and my general lack of interest in it, and...opted for Delphine instead. This singular change thus amplified Delphine's character within the narrative. :)

In vein with the wolf bite, there was going to be a scene where when Feyd goes down on her for the first time, he sees the bite and asks about it. When Eurydice explains it came from a big ass wolf, Feyd sinks his teeth into her thigh and basically "marks" her. I thought it was neat, but ultimately not worth the whole narrative and scenes, etc., that would've had to come before it.

Chapterhouse is about 80% untouched, so the natural resources are allowed to flourish, hence why the trees are so big. But it also has a bunch of impressive creatures that would be long since extinct from earth but are thriving on the planet. ;) These animals are based on the Late Pleistocene mammals. And to clarify, no, sadly no dinosaurs exist on Chapterhouse. :')

In my original draft of the first few chapters, Feyd-Rautha was going to kill Kaine at nine years old on Lankiveil, not Giedi Prime. Feyd-Rautha was going to grow up under his father's wing, a bullied boy within Lankiveil who was ridiculed and berated by his peers for being the son of an exiled member of House Harkonnen. The knife belonged to Kaine and Feyd-Rautha killed him with it and buried his body in the snow. This was changed shortly after when I did research on Feyd-Rautha's history and found that his father and mother were killed by Rabban when Feyd-Rautha was two. I liked this much better and decided to keep it. :)

A narrative regret of mine...I wrote and published EIOB before watching Dune: Part 2. When I found out the movie changed Feyd-Rautha's narrative so he killed his mother, I regretted having written her already dead at the start of the story. I would have deeply loved exploring the possibilities on how this would've affected Feyd's childhood. :') It's my only major regret, but honestly, it's not detrimental to the narrative. It's just one of those *face smack* moments, ya feel? :/

[goddessofroyalty]

There's always been one thing I never really understood about Omegaverse and other verses where people go through heat cycles, and I kinda want your thoughts on this take. Why is it people seem to think that just because you're in heat, you're a completely INSATIABLE nymphomaniac during that time. Like, I get it, actually participating in secual activity will help but like... literally ask ANY woman on their period what they feel like, and usually Horny is one of the last things they're gonna tell you. That's isn't to say you aren't horny more than usual but like... usually, everything else overshadows it. Why can't we have omegaverses and heat cycles that depict the more gross side of things?? Why is the stand usually that an omega wants a massive orgy!? Is there soekthing I'm missing?

To actually answer your question before I get into My Thoughts, Heats are written the way they are because:

1. Heats are something that does happen in the animal kingdom, which, while basically every species behaves differently during, is the biological "time to have sex" time.

2. Probably more importantly, heat-tropes (and definitively omegaverse) started as an excuse for porn that then had worldbuilding created around them.

Now that I have acknowledged those two things we can go into my thoughts.

Because while humans are ultimately just animals in the biologial sense, we are animals that developed agriculture and civilisations. And to be able to have those things you just can't really have a noticable amount of your population in their prime who are taking a full week off being completely mindless sex machines (especially when you consider it would be both the omega and their mate out of action if the omega needs near constant sex). Of course this can be mitigated depending on how often the heats are - people could and did take time off their responsibilities throughout history by leaning on family/community (especially relevant in more pack-based omegaverses). But it can also be mitigated by not having heats be all-consuming so the omega (and their mate/s) an still tend to their duties/tasks with only brain fog and more breaks than usual (to go fuck/masturbate away the horny).

If you've been following this blog for a while you would know I lean towards the later (for social cohesion reasons as well but that's another long explanation).

I completely agree with wanting more people to explore the more gross/uncomfortable elements of heats (we are afterall animals that created clothing so we're not just walking around bare). That's why I tend to have cramps as an early-heat symptom. But ultimately the goal of a heat is to motivate the person to have sex and it being so uncomfotable that they don't want to is counter-productive to that goal (with the usual caveat of everyone being different and that there are likely people who have heats that are just uncomfortable).

And of course the other final caveat of every fandom I write in tends to get a slightly different flavour of omegaverse depending on what I think works best with the themes/worldbuilding of that piece of canon.

[yj-98]

my brain is perpetually melting lately so im like not super comprehending it but i looove hearing ppl talk about what theyre into and i am just nodding along so enthusiastically when you talk about rdr2 . also take this as me asking about it as i said im nodding along

crow im sorry </3 honestly i understand 100% and i hope the brain fog lifts for you<3 but im happy its fun to hear about <3 thank you for nodding along and asking about it (in spirit) so let me lay the generic history + synopsis of both games because i have . sort of just been dropping context as i talk about two brothers and their horrible father (<3 and the good one)

anyways im about to be very autistic<3 buckle up

red dead redemption (2010) started off as a spiritual successor to a game called red dead revolver (2004) that rockstar bought after the game had been cancelled after it failed to follow thru with funding issues in 2000 (capcom. as in mega man capcom, was paying for a studio to make it, but funding dropped and and that studio closed so rockstar acquired the studio + eventually got the rights for rthe game). HOWEVER they wanted to do more w/ the concept

so john martson was born in 2010 w/ the first red dead game. youre introduced to a this former outlaw in 1911 who's family is being used for blackmail as he makes his way across a fictionalized version of the american south/west + mexico trying to track down his former friends because the US govt wants them dead. hes polite but no-nonsense and hes sarcastic sometimes and mentally unwell and also so kind. hes very funny honestly like rdr1 john my beloved. and he helps people along the way! he makes associates with all kinds of people. he deals with the people in his old gang (javier escuella and bill williamson), including his father figure dutch van der linde. hes described as his fathers greatest success and greatest downfall. hes returned to his wife and son and 'uncle' only for the US govt to raid their home, kill uncle, and it forces john to tell his wife and son to run while he makes a last stand, knowing that theyd stop at killing him. because ultimately these games are about redemption. and it almost succeeds, but his son grows up to avenge him

and its a fun game! its a wonderful story its really well done with interesting twists and turns and a HEARTBREAKING ending with this kid just. continuing that cycle. killing a government man puts a target on his head too. and rockstar couldve gone with a sort of . 1910s-1920s set sequel where you explore what the kids fate is. instead in 2018 we're given a prequel in the form of red dead redemption 2.

its 1899 and its the end of the golden age and the age of the "west" is honestly decades gone. dutch is clinging to an old life because he hates the US government, doesnt trust the law, etc. hes got a group of misfits including two men hes raised since they were preteens (arthur morgan + john marston) alongside his oldest friend (platonic life partner? sorry. theyre toxic old men* in love) hosea matthews.

(*old for 1899)

so arthur morgan is born in 2018. hes not mentioned once in rdr1 because he didnt exist! and rockstar gives themself the very hard job of making us LIKE a protagonist new to the story as a whole. and it works basically immediately. id argue its almost impossible to hate arthur when he feels so human. ive rarely like. played a game that beat for beat feels very much like reading a novel and i am. so honest when i say he feels human. they all do. but you hear his thoughts, you read his journal entries, you hear his comments to himself and his way of interacting with the world around you, let alone with other people. hes so endearing, if not a bit gruff and rough around the edges, and then he warms. especially around hosea, or in quiet moments with john or his friendship that blooms w/ a man named charles (i will not get into this.) or his kindness with sadie adler, a widow you meet in the prologue (shes sooo).

and then arthur starts dying. hes dying from the end of chapter 2. theres 6 chapters total + two epilogues w/ john. chapter 1 is essentially the prologue. youre given ONE whole chapter with arthur before It Happens. and hes declining. and you get hints. he starts coughing.

rdr2 is a story of arthur and the events that lead to rdr1 with a splintered family. you know the events of rdr1 will happen as absolutes: bill dies. javier dies. dutch dies. john and abigail (his wife) will die. jack, their son, who in rdr2 is maybe all of 5 years old, will one day kill a man. but that seems so distant

its a death march, its an avalanche, its a butterfly effect. its a car crash its a trainwreck. and youre a rubbernecker. you cant look away, you have to play his part in the play. the events that ultimately are the catalyst happen a month prior to the games opening: dutch picked up a man named micah bell, and micah is not a nice man. and he knows exactly how to play dutch like a fiddle. and dutch's ego is too big to know hes being played. they rob a ferry boat. it goes badly. people die. the pinkertons are after them all. they run into the mountains and almost die. dutch's ego is bruised and he Needs to correct it. they run into his old nemesis and they steal that guys plans to rob a train. you could say that this was the true catalyst for the events for the rest of the game but ultimately it doesnt matter. micah has his grip on dutch, and dutch just robbed one of thee wealthiest men in america, who has an ego that matches

meanwhile arthur is an attack dog, and he attacks the wrong target on orders he doesnt like. a weak man dying of tuberculosis. it infects arthur, unwittingly. arthur can quit these jobs. its doesnt matter. he will die in 6 months

rdr2 is a story of trying desperately to pump the breaks as more and more people die. its about hope and trying to save as many people as you can. its about people who fall through the cracks and who the 1% hate coming together and the reality of being used in a cult of personality. its about one man falling apart and taking 20+ people who looked to him like a shepherd, down with him. its about desperately clinging to the past as the future rockets forward. its about loyalty its about betrayal its about dying.

arthur is shown chapter after chapter as he gets weaker that his father is willing to let family die. that when dutch loses hosea in ANOTHER botched robbery he is not the same man. that he's willing to let both his sons die. and when arthur realizes his time left is short, hes desperate to make things right

arthur dies letting john escape. dutch and micah look down at him as hes dying and walk away. arthur is buried facing west. for the sun. john inherits his hat and journal. john tries to build that fateful home with abigail and jack. you spend the epilogue with him as he tries to make wrong puzzle pieces fit and shave down the parts of him that were his fathers son so that they can try to live normally. he succeeds. the epilogue lets you face micah and dutch as john and arthurs friends who survived (charles + sadie). you kill micah. he deserves it. dutch lets john live.

time does not stop. rdr1 looms ahead. you ignore this and play ranch simulator as john draws in arthurs journal and writes and scratches out words and draws hearts around his wifes name. you can find arthurs grave and sit with him.

i spent 1 month putting off arthurs death. i mourned him in real time when he died. games to CHANGE the brain chemistry

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

In SGG’s most recent update (amazing, fantastic), I love that Inumaki has the Ultimate Power Move of gently touching Yuuta’s wrist and from that moment Yuuta will be compliant. Forget Yuuta’s Power of Love, inumaki’s is winning the prize. Beautiful, 10/10, I love seeing it weaponized to combat Yuuta’s insanity.

I was also rereading the previous chapter and Shoko saying that it took gojo six months to recover from his first use of cursed energy really jumped out at me. If you’re willing and at liberty to say, what was his crash like?

Thanks again for another fantastic update!!! <3

It's legitimately one of the underlying rules of the SGG universe that Yuuta's a huge simp for Inumaki and if Inumaki takes him by the wrist, he'll stop resisting and go along with things. He did it in chapter 7 too. His heart is beautiful and true and Yuuta is very flustered to be (almost) holding his hand.

Gojo's experience with RCT was exacerbated by the fact that he kept using it at a high level pretty constantly in the aftermath so he could keep his infinity up constantly. So his problem was actually very close to Yuuta's--every time he came down from it, he sent himself right back into the symptoms by using it more.

Gojo's bad effects with RCT basically made him act high. But internally, he felt like he could See and Know everything in the universe. Dude was basically seeing shrimp colors. He felt like he was god. It was basically him after the fight with Toji all the time.

When the RCT wore off and he crashed, he felt like the universe had been drained of half of its color. He felt like he was swaddled in cotton and everything was muffled and dull. It was a case of serious brain fog for someone who was used to existing at a higher level of clarity than anyone else alive.

Have you ever seen that post that's like, eldritch horror is an ant for a brief moment knowing what it's like to be human? And then suddenly he's an ant again, and he can't reconcile the two existences?

Gojo's used to being the human among the ants. But RCT made him feel like he was on a completely different level of knowledge and understanding than usual. Then, when he crashed, he felt like he was suddenly shuffled down to being an ant. He wasn't actually less perceptive; it's just that RCT was fucking with his emotional response and perceptions.

I'm so glad you liked it!

[girlboss-enthusiast]

@labsbian gave me permission to post this publicly, and a couple other people have asked similar things. It's related to this post about not identifying as a radical feminist anymore. For anyone reading this, please keep in mind that I'm autistic and have brain fog, and ask for clarification instead of assuming bad faith. My thoughts on this are evolving as we discuss it, too.

First off, I do consider myself aligned with radical feminism. I may not call myself a radical feminist because I truly don't think I adhere to enough of the basic tenets to call myself one, but In conversation, I'll say something like "I'm pretty much a radfem," or "I agree with radical feminists on this topic." I'm not rejecting the concept of or affiliation with radical feminism; my post relates more to online communities like radblr than irl activism, where mostly no one cares about your specific label so long as you're helping (at least in my experience).

Now, there are two separate answers for me to give here. The first is about my personal beliefs and where they do and don't clash with radical feminism. The second is a broader reflection on radical feminism as a viable political movement. I'm going to address the second part first. This gets very long, as a warning!

I've done a lot of reading on radical feminism and spoken to many women who are dedicated radical feminists, and in my opinion, female separatism is the ultimate goal of radical feminism. It's the most thorough way of challenging patriarchy at its root. If you (general you) are a radfem who disagrees with this, I get it; everyone will have a slightly different interpretation of what radical feminism is. But IMO, if you look at the stats and theory, and believe that the personal is political, separatism is the most logical conclusion to patriarchy.

But the problem is that many (most?) women aren't going to become separatists. Lots of them are going to be super resistant just to interrogating how misogyny infiltrates their personal lives, even as they acknowledge structural sexism - either because they don't want to really think about the horror of it, or they dislike the concept of the personal being political, or they just don't think it's that deep. Some women will interrogate the misogyny in their lives and choose to have relationships with men, either romantically or platonically. Is it the wisest choice? Often not. Is it going to be the most common one? Yeah, I think so. (For transparency, that is the choice I've made, and yes, I've thought about it a lot.) Ultimately, I think that the choice to keep males in your life is not compatible with radical feminism.

There is a gap between radfem theory and practice, and the opinions and beliefs of many women. I truly cannot see a widespread 6B4T movement happening in the USA in my lifetime. (I'm focusing on the US bc that's where I live, and I don't know enough about other places' feminism to make sweeping statements.) I think it's vitally important to bridge that gap. Yet it seems like most radfems online see the gap as insurmountable, or not worth focusing on. I really, really disagree with that. I think it's counterproductive to the advancement of women's rights and status in the world. That doesn't mean I think the "more radical" feminist goals on the radfem side of the gap aren't worth pursuing and supporting. I just don't think they're going to cause material change for the majority of women, not yet. I personally would prefer to put my energies toward working with libfems, choicefems, normie women, and male allies to reduce harm toward all women and find compromises between radfem beliefs and their beliefs. It seems to me that the goal of radical feminism is less about outreach and more about making strong communities of politically involved, likeminded women. There is a need for both subcategories of feminists and room for both of us in the broader feminist movement.

I want to emphasize that this relates mostly to online communities. IRL relationships or close online ones allow for much more nuance than radblr or its Twitter equivalent. So honestly, maybe this take is just terminally online! I do spend more time here and less time touching grass than I would prefer due to my disability. I've also been talking with some women who strongly believe that someone in my position should still call herself a radical feminist, precisely so there is variation in the movement that can be more accepting and...idk, open-minded. I'm letting that thought percolate right now.

As for my personal beliefs and radical feminism, I can actually summarize those in bullet points, as opposed to the rest of this post lol.

Radical feminists tend to ignore the nuance of gender and sex dysphoria, writing it off as reactions to misogyny which can be fixed, or just straight-up privilege. I'm skeptical on that. I think it's more complex. Some women might find some level of transition to be the most practical solution. Sex dysphoria may have a neurological, endocrinological, or neurodevelopmental component that genuinely requires medical intervention. We just don't have enough research to know. I think people need to do what gets them through the day, and if presenting as the other sex (without denying your own female sex) is what that is....then so be it. The important thing is to figure out what is best for you, and that's a process for sure.

I 100% agree with radical feminists on the sex industry and the beauty industry. However, I do have sympathy for people of both sexes who genuinely never thought about the inhumanity of the sex industry; it seems so obvious to me now, but I totally bought the "sex work is work" line for a while and I know other radfems who did too. I also understand why quitting porn can be difficult because orgasms are a powerful conditioning tool, and when you subconsciously associate orgasms with porn, it can be hard to override that association. I have zero sympathy and complete contempt for people who are educated on the crimes of the sex industry and just carry on with their lives, though. Or for men who quit porn ~for themselves~ after they learned about the hell women, children, and some men go through.

I think men can be allies and can be educated on radical feminism. I do not think men are hopeless or inherently destructive. Male socialization is destructive, yes. Far too many men in general are destructive. Individual men can be fine. I guess that's #notallmen but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

And as I said above, I think radical feminism is fundamentally not flexible enough to be practical on a broad scale. That's truly my biggest issue.

Happy to elaborate further if anyone is interested.

[glossticcs]

~ reasons to keep ⭐️ving during summer

intro-

if you're like me and not yet at your ugw/gw now that it's almost summer vacation, you might feel a bit unmotivated right now. i've caught myself feeling a bit unmotivated as i feel like i've already lost and that i'm going to miss out on summer anyway, since i'm not thin-

enough yet. in this post i'm going to try to prove myself wrong and give reasons as to why we/i need to lock in and stay on the grind

disclaimer:

this is obv for edtmblr. it's also more relevant if you're currently in school or uni. also, i am aware that a lot of this is pretty unrealistic but delulu is the solulu (k!ll me now)

1.glow up

this might be the most obvious reason. imagine coming back to school/uni and finally having reached your ugw. being able to wear whatever you want to school and feel pretty, the look on peoples faces when they see you again, and how drastically different you look.

2. brain fog

now, this might not be relevant to everyone be you might have summer school, a different education system or not go to school at all, BUT regardless.i am a very ambitious student and will often catch myself giving myself some slack while studying or at school, -

letting myself eat smth to stay sharp. during summer i won't be studying as much, meaning that reason to eat can be discarded all together. brain fog ultimately won't be as big of an issue, or won't have as big consequences at least.

3.reset

implementing new, healthy habits takes time. i view summer break as a kind of pause (granted, i will be working almost every day) where i can focus more on myself and getting used to a new, healthier way of living. i can put more energy into this, since i won't have to

focus as much on studying etc. when school inevitably starts again these habits will be much more implemented into my lifestyle and i can live more comfortably, not having to focus on changing my way of living all the time.

4.autumn

i am definitely an autumn girly, i love autumn so much. imagining myself being thin during autumn, drinking black coffee in a café while studying and watching gilmore girls is rly motivating. if i work hard now, i can have reached my ugw in time for autumn.

5.halloween

this kind of ties into my previous point, but during halloween i will be able to wear any costume and look good in it

6.summer is long

this depends on your geographical location, but if you're european like me, it is relevant. it is only the very beginning of june. if you work hard now, you could be thinner by august and still enjoy a few months of summer being more confident in a slimmer body

7.⭐️ving in summer

where i live it's basically cold all the time.'

ving when it's warm out is so much nicer than doing so

when the asphalt is thick with snow and frost, or it's raining and dark out 24/7. really savour the warm weather and all the light and fresh summer foods.

the end:

i hope this makes sense to someone else and not just me :)

[geneticallymodifiedidiot]

i also want to say (admittedly as a skinny person, so someone call me out if this is insensitive): being skinny kind of sucks!

im cold. all the time. oh my god wind is the worst. back when i had some weight i could go outside in 50 degree weather in shorts and a t-shirt and now i need to wear a full-on weather suit of armor

i have zero center of mass. i get knocked down really easily, which is a problem during marching band games like ultimate frisbee where people can get kinda aggressive sometimes, and i have an award on my wall with the words "most injury prone" to show for it.

i developed anxiety around food, i'll subconciously count calories and nutrients and it's really frustrating because i've almost lost the ability to enjoy food.

brain fog. if i go for like a solid ~7 hours without eating i lose the ability to think. i'm basically on autopilot in the mornings until lunch.

there's probably more that im not thinking of, moral of the story is: being skinny (especially artificially) is overrated, being happy is more important. also the feeling of my ribs being visible through a hoodie is very unpleasant.

If T makes you gain weight and E and antidepressants do it too, and do does enjoying good food and not being hungry all the time, then perhaps maybe sometimes joy & weight gain come hand in hand and that's good

[merveloyd]

You know what? I've collected/curated a lot of good quotes for a couple of years, I should unleash them, so here are the words of people more apt with them than me.

//

`Good point, well made,’ said Ridcully, dismissing it instantly

//

So a lot of history is now gone for ever. The Campaign for Real Timers claim that just as easy travel eroded the differences between one country and another, and between one world and another, so time travel is now eroding the differences between one age and another. "The past," they say, "is now truly like a foreign country. They do things exactly the same there."

-Douglas Adams

//

Terms cut out of fog! Watering down the currency of expression, causing anything to mean whatever you want it to mean, until nothing is meant and nothing is precise!

//

“…Grow up and face the real world.” “I have,” Carlo replied. “I faced it, and now I’m going to change it.”

-Greg Eran

//

Miserable, atrocious fucking day. The kind of day that you never quite recover from. But that is life, making peace with suffering is the ultimate goal. As they say: This too shall pass.

-ItsTheTalia

//

Science has proven that sex is impossible…             But the Bible begs to differ

-Neil Ciciriega

//

A bankrupt nobleman was just another beggar, after all.

//

Do not go gentle into that good night, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

//

It was a simple fact that, by and large, women were not as physically suited for infantry combat as men. By and large . . . …What happens to the individual, when they get locked within that dangerous "by and large"? Generality is a slippery slope. …Ay, there's the rub. Because a fair number of women did pass even Frank's disgruntled scrutiny—and some of them with flying colors. Six of them, to be precise.

//

She'd always thought it was stupid anyway to accept a man only to immediately try to turn him into something he wasn't. On a practical level, why bother? Find someone else, dummy, if it bothers you that much. On a deeper level, because something about the idea offended Sharon Nichols' concept of basic human dignity.

//

NO. YOU NEED TO BELIEVE IN THINGS THAT AREN’T TRUE. HOW ELSE CAN THEY BECOME? 

//

Forward, by god! Forward we lurch into the dim horizon! We all go together where we all go alone!

-Zach Weinersmith

//

You’re not your thoughts. You’re not your brain. You’re just the character you’ve made. Up in your head down in your heart, What seem like separate body parts Just come together to believe they’re you, And not just chemistry. It’s not the way that you were raised, Or what the advertisements say. Not what you pay for, what you pray for, What you want, or what you say.

-Will Wood

//

Sometime “respect” can mean treating someone like an authority Sometimes “respect” can mean treating someone like a person And sometimes when someone says, “if you don’t treat me with respect, I won’t treat you with respect” what they really mean is, “if you don’t treat me like an authority, I won’t treat you like a person”

-DrewKime

//

No one is their perfect mask, no one is your fantasy of how they are and you don’t need to change them into that, but you can help them become their ideal self, not for anyone else or for whatever they want to have in you, but for themselves

//

Finally, Gretchen understood the full extent of her victory. Total, complete. She had beaten the Devil. Whipped him like a cur. She had saved everything from his dark realm. Even the one thing she had thought lost forever. The only thing she possessed of value to the Beast, which she had traded away to save her family. Now, at the threshold of her new life, she reached through the iron gates and snatched back her virginity. Gleefully, she robbed the Robber, and gave the treasure as a gift, to the man who had earned it.

-Eric Flint

//

Touching and groping things you don't understand never ends well.

-Fear and hunger 2: Termina

//

He’s lost in what I call virgin boy instant love syndrome - they get some pussy and think they’ve met the love of their life

-cinnamonest

//

An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure

-gingerinajacket8519

//

Wealth isn’t “stuff” , it’s the social relationship of command

-HeavenlyPossum

//

I have never heard of X, and frankly X sounds completely unhinged, and also the main proponent of X, whom you refer to as a ‘celebrity’, seems to be a naked man who lives in a garden shed

-bat_out_of_heck

//

With my wife's consent, I spent the first six-ish years of our kid's life sprinkling in little lies, such as: * Some French fries contain a toxin called "floshtins" which are poisonous to young children (but which parents are immune to). Don't worry—we've taken out all the floshtinated French fries from your plate, but that's why we don't share with you. * Bears don't exists * When you went a year without losing any baby teeth, the entire economy of Tooth Fairlyland, which had engaged in rampant tooth-based speculation, collapsed. It is now a post-apocalyptic hellhole. * Christian Von Koenigsegg personally agreed to design you that drone you thought up, the one that could fly, was the size of a 1x1 lego piece and that shoots fireballs, but the project is still stuck in the R&D phase * You have a dial in your belly button that we can adjust to "realign your glorvax" and put you in a better mood. That last one actually works, though.

-OpenBagTwo

//

Everyone deserves a second chance, but if they prove me wrong then they’re done

-mr-kitten23

//

May you end this week feeling ever more certain of a future you’ll love

-weaselle/blinkpatch

//

[DANGEROUS QUOTE OBLY MEANT FOR ENEMIES, NOT YOU]

You will die alone, with shit in your pants. That is a prophecy.

-David Wong

[DANGEROUS QUOTE ENDED]

//

I SING MY OWN SWEET MELODY, I GO MY OWN SWEET WAY I WON’T BEG ‘ROUND TOMORROW FOR THE KIND OF AFFECTION THAT WAS FREE TODAY! OH, YOU CAN SQUEEZE ME, TEASE ME; SAY I’M YOUR OWN BUT I’M NO GIRL’S TOY! YOU CAN CHARM ME, CHASE ME, FOLLOW ME HOME; I WON’T BE COY! YOU MAY NOT LIKE IT MUCH BUT I’M MY OWN BEST BOY

-Raggedy Andy 

//

[endsicknessorg]

Colostrum: The Mold Illness Miracle You Didn’t Know You Needed

When it comes to recovering from mold illness, people will suggest everything under the sun—detox baths, HEPA filters, and maybe even chanting under the moon. But one thing no one seems to mention? Raw colostrum. Why? Probably because they’ve never guzzled it by the gallon like I have!

Yes, I’m a certified colostrum fanatic, and I may or may not moo occasionally during meetings. After seeing this liquid gold turn my decade-long health disaster around—and help my daughter conquer her mold-induced woes—I’m here to spill the (udder) secrets about colostrum.

In this article, I’ll share how raw colostrum worked its magic on me and others battling mold illness. I’ll explain why it’s a must-have for addressing mold colonization and mycotoxin overload. Finally, I’ll tackle the FAQs about colostrum and mold recovery because, trust me, you’ll have questions.

My Journey with Raw Colostrum: From Food Fears to Fierce Healing There was a time when I could eat exactly six foods. Six. Anything else would send me into a whirlwind of panic, itching, throat-closing drama, and other reactions straight out of a horror film. Even the wrong smell in the air? Cue muscle spasms and emotional meltdowns. I thought I was destined to live in a bubble until colostrum entered my life.

Let me tell you, this stuff was a game-changer. My gut lining? Restored. My immune system? Activated. Rashes? Gone. Food sensitivities? Dialed way down. Colostrum didn’t magically erase my mycotoxin sensitivity, but it gave my body the support it desperately needed to function again. Without it, I’d still be in a health spiral.

Colostrum Saved My Daughter Too (After a Rocky Start) When my daughter was first sick, I thought colostrum would be her saving grace—until she started wheezing like a broken accordion. Turns out, colostrum and mycotoxin exposure don’t mix. Once we moved out of our moldy house, she handled colostrum like a champ. Her rashes cleared, her stomach settled, and I officially became the president of the Colostrum Fan Club.

Lesson learned: If your environment is still full of mold triggers, colostrum might not work its full magic. You need a clean space and a trigger-free diet to let it shine. It’s not a cure-all, but it’s a vital piece of the puzzle.

Why Raw Colostrum Crushes Mold Colonization 1. Starves Mold of Iron Mold is basically the vampire of the fungus world—it loves iron. Luckily, colostrum contains lactoferrin, which grabs iron like it’s Black Friday at the mall, leaving mold colonies starving and unable to multiply.

2. Fixes Your Gut Lining Mold toxins wreck your intestinal barrier faster than a toddler on a sugar rush. Colostrum’s growth factors repair that damage, tightening up your gut so mycotoxins can’t sneak into your bloodstream and wreak havoc.

3. Balances Your Immune System Mold doesn’t just mess with your immune system—it throws a wild frat party in there. Colostrum’s PRPs (proline-rich polypeptides) kick out the unruly guests and restore order, so your body can fight off pathogens like a pro.

4. Binds and Flushes Mycotoxins Mycotoxins stick to your cells like gum on a shoe, causing oxidative chaos. Colostrum’s immunoglobulins swoop in, bind to these toxins, and send them packing. Bonus: It also boosts glutathione, your body’s detox superhero.

5. Promotes Good Gut Bacteria Colostrum is like fertilizer for your gut garden. Its prebiotics feed friendly bacteria like lactobacillus, which then bully mold colonies out of existence.

The Healing Power of Colostrum: Beyond Mold Colonies Reduces Inflammation Everywhere Mycotoxins trigger inflammation like they’re trying to win an award. Colostrum cools the flames by calming mast cells and promoting anti-inflammatory cytokines. Say goodbye to joint pain, brain fog, and that constant gut misery.

Rebuilds Damaged Tissues From your gut lining to your blood-brain barrier, colostrum���s growth factors are the ultimate repair crew, patching up damage caused by mold exposure.

Replenishes Nutrients Mold drains your body’s nutrient reserves, leaving you running on empty. Colostrum refuels you with easily absorbable vitamins, minerals, and amino acids.

Balances Hormones At my moldiest, my testosterone levels could’ve been outdone by a senior citizen. After a few months of colostrum? Hormonal harmony.

Supercharges Detox Pathways Colostrum gets your detox systems moving like a well-oiled machine. True story: After my first dose, my urine actually had color for the first time in years.

FAQs: Everything You’re Too Shy to Ask About Colostrum Can mold colonize my body? Rarely. Mold colonization happens in severely immunocompromised folks, not the average person with mycotoxin illness. If you’re worried, an organic acid test can help confirm.

Will colostrum kill mold inside me? Nope, but it gives your immune system the tools to do the job. Think of it as a personal trainer for your body’s defenses.

Is colostrum good for candida? Absolutely. Cows are walking candida fighters, and their colostrum is loaded with antifungal antibodies.

Do I need to kill mold to recover from mold illness? Not necessarily. Focus on eliminating exposure, balancing your immune system, and healing your gut. Colostrum does all three without wreaking havoc like harsh antifungals.

Colostrum: The MVP of Mold Recovery Recovering from mold illness isn’t about waging war on fungi—it’s about helping your body find balance. Raw colostrum supports your immune system, heals your gut, and gets your detox pathways back online, making it the ultimate sidekick in your mold recovery journey.

After 20+ years of experimenting with natural remedies, nothing has come close to the transformative power of colostrum. It saved my health, my daughter’s health, and countless others I’ve worked with.

So, if you’re stuck in the mold illness maze, give colostrum a shot. Your gut, immune system, and sanity will thank you.

Happy healing (and maybe a little mooing) to you all!

[gingmina]

MEET MY SONA ! 🐈‍⬛⭐️🎀

im finally introducing my hxh sona to the universe ! everyone meet amina!

more info abt her under the cut ! this is gonna be a long post i think

let’s start off with some basic info!

name: amina freecss

nicknames: amie, min

nen type: manipulator-conjurer

pronouns: she/him

age/birthday: 06/08— 29 y/o

sexuality: lesbian

gender: bigender

relationships: ging (fiancé), cheadle (girlfriend), kite (partner), pariston, mizai, (metamours/friends), *deluca (best friend/found sibling), arlene and makena (bosses/friends) etc.

race/species: cuban colombian

voiceclaim(s): lizzie freeman

source: hxh

likes: plushies, animals, fashion, kpop, weed

* these are my other hxh ocs !! i may introduce them if anyone’s interested :O!

she has two nen abilities : Stuffed Heart and Cloud Space!

ABILITY 1: STUFFED HEART

Stuffed Heart is part of Amina’s main defense ability. Amina carries a plushie on her person at all times, the most prominent plush you’ll see the most is a fox she calls Eden.

On the outside, Eden appears to be a normal plush toy that a child would have. What you wouldn’t know is that he’s sentient, thanks to Amina’s nen. Eden works as a distraction. The enemy will notice Eden’s charm and becomes overwhelmed with joy and cuteness aggression, so much so that it could bring them to tears or leave them into a hysteric state. This could even result in death (self imploding.) If said enemy doesn’t die from self imploding, from there Amina will use normal attacks with her Tessen.

Amina has a few other plushies who have the same sentience as Eden. They serve as both comfort items and her bodyguards. She can transfer sentience into a new plushie when she wants, however it’s a very tedious process that she hasn’t quite mastered.

Only Amina could feel the plushie’s sentience, only she could communicate with them. She can relay messages from her plushies to other beings.

ABILITY 2: CLOUD SPACE

Cloud Space, unlike Stuffed Heart, is a retreat ability. It is activated under circumstances such as; being knocked unconscious, being near death or extremes mental stress. Amina’s hands will come together, almost in a prayer form. She’ll look up to the sky with whitened eyes and summon pastel-colored clouds. The clouds engulf her, taking her to another ‘realm’, leaving a small cloud charm on the ground. The charm can be taken by people Amina grants her utmost trust with (so far those people are Deluca, Ging and Cheadle.)

In Cloud Space, Amina is unable to contact people from the ‘outer’ realm, she’s also not able to be reached until she’s out of the realm.

The realm provides as, again, a retreat when Amina is in a vulnerable spot. It could take minutes upon hours, sometimes days, for Amina to emerge from Cloud Space. When she does so, wherever the charm has been taken, she will come back the same way she disappeared; emerging from the same clouds. Once she’s returned to our realm, she’ll be unconscious for a little bit. Even after regaining her conscious, Amina’s brain will remain loopy and foggy for a while. This could be a few minutes, hours, days. The longest that this brain fog has lasted was three days.

here’s some misc info!

- amina is autistic and has adhd + bpd + dpd!

- asides from being a hunter, amina works at a nightclub called ‘Borealis Mirage’, she’s a performer and an unofficial waitress :3

- she began working at the club before becoming a hunter! she always liked dancing as a stim, as well as going clubbing and listening to loud music, so that’s what ultimately made her work at Borealis

- amina is an age regressor !! ging is her primary caregiver!

- amina also has heterophobia in her eyes 🩷 /sil (heterochromia) she has one yellowish-gold eye (left) and a brown eye (right) !

if you’re interested in drawing her with ging or her other partners, or just her, i would be over the moon!!!!!

there’s definitely more i could add on abt her, but this post is long enough!! i hope u guys Enjoy my scrunkly pop :3 she is so very special to me and in a way helped me become more confident w myself IDK how to explain it >_< AMINA THE UNIVERSE!!

[ancestorsofjudah]

2 Kings 6: 24-33. "Gangster Governments."

The Torah and Tanakh warn against Sieges in Aram, the High Places, where the "sacred cows" of society dwell. Pro-Life is a good example. Pro-Life is illegal. By law, women are allowed to have full health care coverage. Yet we think this is wrong because of ways we have "burned incense in the High Places". We have fogged our minds and state houses up with nonsense and once again we are dealing with Pro-Life a topic that is long since been obsolete.

The same is true about gays and lesbians, drag shows, about Jews themselves. High Places are misty illusions and delusions we have about things but treat them with deadly importance. They are not.

Food, water, shelter, basic services, an excellent education, the ability to own property, and freedom from tyranny and violence these are the things belong in the High Places, the list of traditions and tenets we respect because they are respectable.

When societies place more importance on a drag queen than feeding the poor, climate change, all the bullets and missiles filying overhead, it is called a Famine because this implies there is not enough good sense going around to feed the brains.

Eventually things have to return to normal, and this requires firm study and implementation of the Torah. Implementation of the Torah in favor of the silliness of the stuff that can often by found On High is the job of the King of Israel.

Famine in Besieged Samaria

24 Some time later, Ben-Hadad king of Aram mobilized his entire army and marched up and laid siege to Samaria. 

25 There was a great famine in the city; the siege lasted so long that a donkey’s head sold for eighty shekels[a] of silver, and a quarter of a cab[b] of seed pods[c] for five shekels.[d]

26 As the king of Israel was passing by on the wall, a woman cried to him, “Help me, my lord the king!”

27 The king replied, “If the Lord does not help you, where can I get help for you? From the threshing floor? From the winepress?” 28 Then he asked her, “What’s the matter?”

She answered, “This woman said to me, ‘Give up your son so we may eat him today, and tomorrow we’ll eat my son.’ 

29 So we cooked my son and ate him. The next day I said to her, ‘Give up your son so we may eat him,’ but she had hidden him.”

30 When the king heard the woman’s words, he tore his robes. As he went along the wall, the people looked, and they saw that, under his robes, he had sackcloth on his body. 

31 He said, “May God deal with me, be it ever so severely, if the head of Elisha son of Shaphat remains on his shoulders today!”

32 Now Elisha was sitting in his house, and the elders��were sitting with him. The king sent a messenger ahead, but before he arrived, Elisha said to the elders, “Don’t you see how this murderer is sending someone to cut off my head? Look, when the messenger comes, shut the door and hold it shut against him. Is not the sound of his master’s footsteps behind him?” 

33 While he was still talking to them, the messenger came down to him. The king said, “This disaster is from the Lord. Why should I wait for the Lord any longer?”

The famine which resulted from an uprising in the Kingdom turns population ravenous for Mashiach. As a result, the price of a Donkey's Head, the symbol of messianic tendencies undergoes dramatic inflation.

Things are so bad, a woman, which represents the Temple, says to the King she wants him to give the people his son, the Prince, to eat.

Donkeys and Princes are not food, they are that which feeds us. The eating of a donkey or Prince like they are bread violates the law. All of this is wrong.

In the Jewish religion, the donkey is not a kosher animal. In the Zohar, it is considered avi avot hatuma i.e. an ultimate impure animal, and doubly "impure", as it is both non-ruminant and non-cloven hoofed.

Donkeys are 860, חואֶפֶס‎‎, huafes, "he who is coming to bring peace." We only slaughter animals that reveal our humanity to us upon their demise. We put them behind us. the Donkey's head is ahead of us.

To eat a donkey or the Prince at the behest of the woman means it is time for Mashiach as something essential about the Jewishness of the world is lacking:

"G–d demands that a Jewish home – every Jewish home – should have a Jewish character, not only on Shabbat and the holidays, but also on the ordinary weekdays and in “weekday” matters. It must be a Jewish home in every respect.

What makes a Jewish household different from a non-Jewish household is that it is conducted in all its details according to the directives of the Torah. Hence the home becomes an abode for G–d’s Presence, a home for G–dliness, one of which G–d says, “Make Me a sanctuary, and I shall dwell among them.” (Exodus 25:5)."

But what caused the uproar and what does this section say about the relationship between controversey in the Temple, the Polity and the Throneroom? The Gematria will explain:

v. 24: King Ben Hadad, a "son of the Thunder" [a Jew] got a buzz in his beehive and marched his entire army to Samaria, the Tower of the Guard.

Armies are conscripts, they represent duties. We are in the army when we force ourselves to stop at a stop sign, obey the Decrees, etc.

The Value in Gematria is: 3303, גגאֶפֶסג‎‎‎, gagaphesag, "a gathering of on the roof, to breathe in and discuss the Tree." [Adam and Eve's, of course.]

v. 25: We know what the donkey's head is, but each of the elements of the price on his head have separate Gematria:

eighty shekels of silver=the Value is 1717, אז‎אז‎‎, "so then"

a quarter of a cab of seed pods=964, טוד‎ , todd, "to be surrounded by mandrake, a man who is loving."

five shekels=950, טהאֶפֶס, tahoefs, "suck on the nipple and provide the elemental instruction for the intellect, like feeding a clean bird."

The Value in Gematria is: 7801, זחאֶפֶסא‎ , zahapesa, "the Passover will begin."

v. 26: a king who walks the Wall is standing on the line between what is physical and ethereal, what is ethical and immoral and most importantly what is Jewish and non-Jewish. Our Aramaic Ben Hadad is obviously quite concerned about this.

The Value in Gematria is: 5576, ההזו‎, "this one" = echad.

In Hinduism, we say God is One, without a second. Jews say He is One, plus the rest.

"In resolution, it is explained that this is precisely the intent. G‑d’s singular oneness is taken for granted. Were this not to be true were He a composite of different entities He could not be G‑d.6 What is unique in the description of Him as one is that this material world that appears to exist in its own right, as a separate and distinct entity, is one with Him."

v. 27-28a: The Threshing Floor is where grain is hulled. This specifically refers to the moment a Crown is born, where evil ends and justice takes place because the appropriate authority is named.

The Wine Press, gath, is the Elixir of this justice which is consumed when for some strange reason everyone in the world starts getting along.

The Value in Gematria is: 8055, ח‎אֶפֶסה‎ה‎, "it's empty". An empty threshing floor and winepress are the problem- the society mentioned has no sense of duty nor justice and is therefore being deprived of righteousness and all the blessings of God Plus One.

The son is consumed, cutting off the Royal Line as during the Passover. The King expects the the people to do the same, but they hide their sons, their way of insisting the next generation will be free:

v. 28b-29: The Value in Gematria is: 15191, אה‎‎אטא‎ ‎, "Ah, I will"= "I will become."

The Hebrew words for "I will be" are ehyeh, which means "I will act on My Desires" and for God this means He Who Causes That-Which-Is To Be & He Who Causes That-Which-Can't-Be To FallHouse Of Information Technology, House Of The Alphabet, House Of The Great Human Library."

-> this dovetails nicely with my comments that we are stowing the wrong ideals above the rafters of our religions and politics. God has more than often stated how He really wants us to live in the Torah and the Role He wants to play. And nothing we are doing resembles any of it.

v. 30-31: Elisha Son of Shaphat, "is a government born of rule of law."

To tear one's clothes and reveal sackcloth means to separate oneself from the cause of trouble, put the past into the fire, turn it to ash and carry them forth in sackcloth, a state of regret, so one does not forget.

The Value in Gematria is: 11866, יאח‎וו‎ ‎Yahweh. Yhwh, Yaweh, "beatification in God" has a cohort, nwh, naweh, that is more pertinent here:

"Dictionaries list three separate roots נוה (nwh), but on closer scrutiny these roots blend together in a fundamental meaning of government, and the beauty and eminence that follows from a country that is properly governed — as opposed to a country that is plagued by anarchy and gangs and gangster governments."

v. 32: The Value in Gematria is 11461, יאדוא‎‎, yadua, "to know of the power of knowledge through the human hand."

The Elders penned a message using Angelic Script and sent it to the Prophet. What does it say? "Cut your hair", not "we are going to cut off your head."

This means the tradition of cutting the hair to reveal the sidelocks, the ears, must be observed according to a political ordinance.

v. 33: The Value in Gematria is 9506, טהאֶפֶסו, thafesu‎‎, "you shall observe the Torah Festival" presumably this means Shavuot. "and you shall choose to be free."

"It's not clear where this word comes from but anyone with a poetic slant might notice that it looks suspiciously like an outgrowth of the second personal pronoun συ (su) or σοι (soi), meaning you.

Whether that notice has any substance to it is for all to guess at, but it would correspond with the function of the English language that relates some indefinite "other guy" to the word body: anybody, somebody.

Note also that the verb σωζω (sozo), to save, comes from the adjective σως (sos), meaning safe, whereas the word σος (sos) is the possessive adjective of the second person plural: yours, which indeed derives from the second personal pronoun συ (su). In fact, the Greek σω- root yields quite an array of words that have to do with wholeness.

Another so- word of unclear pedigree describes the familiar concept of σοφια (sophia), commonly translated with "wisdom". Those at a loss for wisdom will confuse it with the pursuit of knowledge or perhaps even that of truth, but those in command of it know that sophia pursues convention: sophia explores ways to accomplish agreement between parties without demanding that they compromise their integrity or curb their concerns.

This obviously goes hand in hand with understanding the laws of nature, which in turn starts with respect for the Creator (ROMANS 1:20, Proverbs 9:10).

Better yet: natural law is not at all alike human law; it's not a set of rules that is established somewhere separate from the world it is to govern, but much rather a statistical expression of the behavior that all separate elements in their freedom "chose" to pursue.

Natural law, quite literally, is most alike language, that naturally forms from the cooling chaos of wild interactions and collisions, into a system of rules that folks may reject at will or accept at will.

Those who reject the rules of language will stay mute, misunderstood and bound by darkness. Those who accept the rules of language will achieve freedom-of-speech, a union of minds and true spirituality."

So the problem was and is freedom of speech, which was absent due to a fundamental flaw in how we perceive Religion. Gangster governments, propped up by troublemaking tarts and their pizza faced, fat husbands are the cause of this.

The Melachim says people need to use their heads. Governments like this cannot be permitted to survive.

[ablednt]

Also it's so frustrating to see people sorted into just "low support needs" and "high support needs" because there are so many things measured.

Like if communicating over text I'm definitely low support, I have very little problem typing things out and advocating for myself over text. But verbally speaking it's a gamble what I'll be able to get out at all and so situations where I'm required to talk out loud put me at a huge disadvantage. I very much need to utilize text based services and stuff like TTS in situations where I am needed to accurately describe my health and my needs but I'm not able to use these things because abled people don't like anyone using those things so that's a fight I cannot do myself and no one is currently able to advocate for me, so my needs are moderate and highly conditional.

My needs are fairly high when it comes to supporting myself, due to physical disability. I can't cook for myself, keep a job, transport myself to doctors appointments, and I need assistance and medication to allow me to do basic tasks like getting up to go use the bathroom. This is something that ableds largely ignore because they see me as lazy, they compare me to others with the disability then lash out at me for not measuring up to that level of function.

Due to brain fog (which I always pronounce as "brain frog" on accident making myself look ridiculous) and melaise and dissociation it's difficult for me to process what's going on and what people are saying and it's a case where my needs are more moderate, I may need to ask a lot of questions or have a conversation scripted for me or to be given extra clear and concise instructions to accomplish simple tasks that are expected of me. I am treated with hostility for that because it doesn't matter what other strengths or needs I have people don't like accommodating anyone with these needs.

This goes on indefinitely everyone's level of function is going to vary and attempting to sprt someone into low or high whilst generalizing every category is going to leave a lot of outliers who fall in between. We could instead be focusing on specific needs and applying that to anyone who has these needs.

It's like saying "people with uteruses" instead of "people who need abortions" or "amab people" rather than "people affected by transmisogyny "

Ultimately the words used aren't what's important but you'll find it's a lot easier to grapple with the fact everyones lives are nuanced when you address people by their specific needs/experiences rather than sort everyone into little categories.

[charleslee-valentine]

Fascinating! Epstein Barr, once in the system, never goes away. It has periods of flare-ups and triggers, but stays around forever. It can also become contagious when it’s in a flare up.

The boys birthmarks he’s referring to would be sort of like a rash or scar, and wouldn’t ever go away, just fade until the immune system attacks again (probably why Chop Tops is super faint and purplish, but Nubbins’ is a striking red color.)

So the syndrome they have is autoimmune, so it’s basically the body attacking itself because of a previous infection. That means sometimes, there might be no symptoms whatsoever, while other times, in a flare-up, it could be pretty intense.

These symptoms are things like chronic fatigue syndrome, migraines, weakness, sweating, body aches, rashes, insomnia, weird limb sensations, and brain fog (which as someone who gets brain fog is periods of confusion, unclear or irrational thinking, and very very intense emotions) I know a woman who has EBV and MS, and she also gets pretty intense mood swings in her flare ups. Possibly because chronic pain sucks and can make you cranky and frustrated and snappy.

These flare ups in EBV are usually triggered by things like stress, hormone and body changes, and immune diseases. Since EBV can cause chronic autoimmune disease, it can put the body in a never ending cycle. There is also some debate about whether EBV flare ups even cause symptoms or if they just cause a person to be contagious again, but as with any disability, it is a spectrum. Every body has a different reaction. But ultimately there is no cure overall, just symptom management.

What makes Epstein Barr so elusive too is that it works in stages, and there’s like 60 variants! That’s a lot! The different stages though would be dormancy right after infection, active spreading, a second dormancy where the virus picks one spot in the body to hide and attack, and then the final stage, where the onset of chronic conditions come in because EBV has grabbed onto the nervous system.

Basically, if the twins had it their whole lives and never got treatment, it would be in their nervous systems and likely causing them symptoms. This could also be things like comorbid conditions, like multiple sclerosis or even types of cancers. :(

I do find it unlikely they’d be diagnosed, since EBV wasn’t even identified until 1964. The twins were already young adults at this time. They’d be living their whole lives until their late teens before this condition was even recognized! Holy shit.

The more you know!

adding on to my last post for proof :)

Nubbins sawyer having a chronic illness is dear to my heart wether its treated as canon or not